Godspeed Diaries

by Al
(Utah)

Someone once said: "I'm a spiritual being going through a human experience." I found this soothing at the time I received it, just as much soothing to me was to hear from the source it sprung from, "the experiences we go through in life will be how God uses us to help others". Those words of encouragement have carried me through tough times in my trials, and in my errors I find that His grace is, truly, sufficient in all of my weaknesses.

I kind of tend to believe I was agnostic at one time. That is to say, though something inside of me always seemed to tug at my seams, drawing me ever closer to believing, because I couldn't directly prove the existence of God, I couldn't prove that He wasn't real either. But I loved the idea of it. I loved the idea of a God that is omniscient, omnipotent and omnipresent, maybe it was because I wasn't any of these. Maybe it was because I lacked any of what omni possessed, or maybe God was trying to enlighten me with various truths that others just don't seem to agree with me on, though they are truths that would have a direct affect on those who could see them. Whatever, the purpose, today, I am a believer in God. I am a believer in Christ Jesus, and I am a believer in the Holy Ghost.

However, I still struggle. Why? Being raised Roman Catholic, it seems they don't have a problem. Investigating others in their Faiths, Christian Scientists, Baptists, Protestant, Mormons, even the Unification Church, it appears they never have a problem in their beliefs. And I'm not saying life problems. Those are a given, our trials and errors in life. I mean they don't have an ear for the left or the right of their doctrine that they believe in and follow.

I find this very strong, and I am weak because I don't see it, except that because of it, I've learned to embrace any and all Faiths, so long as the Faith is an instrument of Good, that it inhibits a person from the natural instincts into following the Spiritual. That because of their Faith they are a better man/woman because of it. Because of their Faith they truly do serve and love God and their fellowman, without any reservations, except for that antiquated fight we all are engaged in, the Good against the Evil.

Life is great! It is sacred. It can be rough, and tough, easy and enjoying. But I've learned to be content in it, not matter what. If there is something I'm not content about then I work on it and try to find the element of its nature to see if it should be accepted in content, thus I'll learn not to murmur of anything that God Provides for Us, All.



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